I would like to do an experiment today. I would like you to think about the last time you posted rude comments, said or wrote something nasty to/about someone, something that was completely uncalled for or something you said that really served no purpose but to be negative and/or make yourself feel more important.
You know what I’m asking for, it’s that reply to a picture or a comment on Facebook or similar where that one person is just a fucking jack ass and you wonder why they even felt the need to comment if THAT was going to be their comment. The comments that do not make the world a better place nor do they bring another person up.
Got it? Ok, now was it a month ago? 3 weeks ago? 2 weeks ago? Last week? Sometime this week? This morning? What did you say or write? Are you laughing right now remembering the emotions you felt when you wrote it? Were those emotions/thoughts something like “fucking stupid people” as you whipped off your retort, or was it “what an idiot?” or “God what an ugly bitch?”
I know people post rude comments because I see it all the time. This morning I was surfing Facebook and I saw a video from “The Stay At Home Chef” Rachel who went live to respond to a very nasty commenter. I watched it and I couldn’t help but get choked up. This commenter said Rachel should dye her hair so she didn’t look like “such an old hag”. Rachel is 31 and has chosen, for reasons she discloses in the video, not to die her hair. I think her hair looks fantastic and she is a beautiful woman!
First of all, who the hell cares what another person’s hair looks like if they are on the blog or watching a video to find a recipe to cook? Who cares what a person looks like if what they have to say is interesting, engaging, educational or heartfelt? Who cares if that person has grey hair, split teeth, acne, a mole on their cheek or is missing an ear/eye/nose?
None of those things should matter and frankly I am sick and tired of all this backstabbing bullshit! It has to stop. So for all you mean spirited ass hats out there who get a kick out of picking on other people, bullying them from afar because it makes you feel omnipotent I want you to stop and look at yourself.
Take A Look Inside
You are miserable. You desperately want to be included in society but you are so ugly inside it has made your outsides just as ugly. You open your mouth and what flows out is vile, putrid, derogatory shit. But you don’t see this as the reason you have no friends, no life and no chance at a future full of happiness.
You hate yourself but project your self-loathing onto others so you don’t have to feel the pain. But you are the source of your pain, not other people. If you want to find happiness, have any semblance of a happy life you need to gut yourself with a spoon (in reference to another blog post Let’s Peel The Onion) and look at all the festering crap inside of you.
You are slowly killing yourself with all this poison you hold inside which unfortunately is spilling out into the world because you have no ability to control your emotions. You want other people to feel the pain you feel but there is a difference. You are in pain of your own making but you are projecting pain onto others who have done nothing to deserve it.
I don’t know what happened to make you such a miserable person, maybe you don’t either. But you have to stop, I’m begging you to stop before you hate yourself so much because you let your words get out of control. You are a bully and at some point you are going to go too far. Are you truly ready to have the consequences of your actions on your heart for the rest of your life?
You may feel you have no one and nothing and you can’t understand why you feel like crying every day. I’ll tell you why. Your soul is pleading with you day in and day out to stop, let go of your pain and start healing. You were put on this earth to do great things whether that means being the best crossing guard ever or a world renowned heart surgeon. It doesn’t matter what you do as long as you LOVE yourself.
Right now you don’t love yourself and no one knows the reason except you. You can keep running from yourself but the problem is you are always there. If you want to stop running, find peace, stop spreading negativity that has no place in this world you can. I just hope you realize there will be a time when it is too late to take action. But that day hasn’t come yet.
You are important and no matter how ugly you feel right now, your beauty is begging to shine. I would love to see that.
Categories: personal rant